As I left to head to Tiger Flowers Cemetery, I found myself thinking that it was going to be hard for me to get anything out of it, seeing as I have never lost anyone close to me. I mean, sure, I’ve lost an uncle and a couple great-grandparents, but no one close enough to me that I had a hard time getting through it or visiting a cemetery. So, as I walked around the cemetery, just thinking to myself, I began to think about my family. It’s amazing how even though i was in a place that signified death all I could think about was being alive, how great my life is, and the people in it. I know that some of the people that rest in that cemetery probably did not have everything that I’ve been blessed with in this life, and also that some might have been just as blessed as me but didn’t realize. I guess what I’m trying to say is, being around death really inspired me to be grateful for what I have, and to let the people around me know how much I love them. The LAST thing I ever want to happen is to have someone close to me pass away and them not know how much I loved them or how much they meant to me. Thinking about that made me see how C.S. Lewis could write a whole book on his grief, I mean the things he describes feeling I could see myself going through the same emotions if something were to happen to someone I love. So even though I’m sure I could keep writing about things I thought about, I’m done with this blog now, because I have more important things to do; for instance, I want to go call my family on skype. "I went to the Lakeview, Roselawn and Tiger Flowers cemetery complex for this fieldtrip, and I stayed there for at least 40 minutes."
Just because you've never experienced it, you've done well to acknowledge that grief is not as abstract as it might appear to be right now. It's hard for all of us to think that one day that will be us... but there's also a reassurance and a desire to strive for a life well lived.
ReplyDeleteI liked the way you phrased your thoughts at the cemetery.